{Random Rant For Today}

The Robins are singing, the wind is whispering, my tea is steeping, and the sun is attempting to make an appearance! I am sitting on the deck enjoying this beautiful (chilly) weather, watching the kids play in the sand box. *SIGH* This is the my life!

I have been running a dayhome since June 2011, with 2 clients. This past year has had its up's and down's, as years usually go! I have been contemplating whether to keep sitting in the fall or just be a mom. (I've also been tossing up the idea to return to school, again...I have 3 years to go before I obtain my Social Work Degree...)It seems for the last 9 years of my married life, I have longed to be a SAHM. I am really loving this decision. After 4 children, my desire was fulfilled. I figured if I am staying at home, why not help out another mother by watching her little one? So that's where that decision took hold.

Now as the months are flying by, I am finding myself craving more time with my own children. In the fall, my son starts Pre-k...how did that happen? For those mornings in the fall, it will be my (then) 2 year old daughter and I at home, creating lasting memories and adventures!

I am torn. I am really looking forward to the fall, but at the same time a one income family just doesn't cut it now-a-days. I am sure my hubby would love for me to find some sort of job to help make  ends meet. And this is wear I get weepy. I want to be the mom that helps out at school functions, I want to be the mom rooting at sporting events, I want to be the wife who has supper on the table when my hubby gets home (that is if my entire life was super organized!!)

I have my Tupperware and Close to My Heart business that bring in a bit of side income. So, I will continue to pray about how things will turn out. I will continue crafting & creating. And I will continue being the best mom and care provider that I know how to be...Thanks for listening to my today *RANT*!!

~happy crafting!~