This Little Light of Mine

This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine.

Don't let Satan
Blow it out.

Quite often songs will pop into my head for different situations. This morning's drive out to pick the kids up from VBS, was one of those times.
So many upsetting events have happened in the last little while. Families have lost their sons, daughters, mothers, fathers....so vague but just look/listen to the news and you'll see what I see.

I can't shake this huge overwhelming feeling of needing to pray. Praying for our nations, government, families, "bad guys"...falling on my face & tears pouring kinda prayer.
Lord use me.
This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine.

My Purpose for Today...

I often wonder what marvelous purpose God has set me up for! Ok God, how can you use me today? 

"For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord,' plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

So often I go against the grain of God's will and purpose for my life. Right from the time I was a toddler I was turning my mom's hair grey! I remember (or think I remember) packing my bags to "run away"; or getting lost in the mall because I was riding the escalators. I've tried to forget about a lot of stuff that happened in my earlier pre-teen/teenage years. But as I'm getting older and now raising a teenager of my own, I'm finding my baggage has caught up with me. I have been forgiven and set free, so I know this is just Satan digging up dirt. But it hurts. And I don't want my children to be hurt. I know they will make their own choices and have their own paths, so my purpose for today, is to pray. 

My children need me home & God will provide. He placed in my care 5 precious lives, and I am here to raise them; to raise them up to be a generation of people who turn to God for decisions, choices, in their good times and in their trials. I pray for their futures, their health, their schooling, their husbands and wives, that they will grow up to be God-fearing/God following individuals. I cover them in prayers and try to lead by example - that is all I can hope for. 

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control..." Galatians 5:22-23

This seems like a good place to start in prayer...for my children, but also for myself.

Follow your Dreams...or Give them up...

My plans are not my own. I have wordly plans, dreams, hopes; but they are nothing if I don't give them up to God. 

I am in a season of craving change. This is nothing new, as I am quite often changing things up because I get bored. So. Easily. But this change I am seeking is different. It has weighed heavy on my heart for sometime now. And yet, this is the first time I have brought it to God. These stirrings have made me quite anxious. Not anxious like a kid in a candy store {although maybe if I looked at it that way as God having some incredible things in store for me} but anxious fear, heavy, overwhelming fear. Which is why I am bringing this to you Lord.

Lord, I want you to lead me. I want to seek what you have planned out for me. Lord use me & let your will be done.

My heart aches for what is happening in our world, in our country, in my province, and in my town. My soul is in pain worrying how I am going to raise my tribe to be God-fearing & God-following people.

   WHO AM I?

I want God to unlock my heart and show me who I am and what His purpose is for me. I want to be doing something to make a difference in a falling apart earth. Right now, I think that is just raising these little people. And until God tells me otherwise, that is what I will do. I will wait. I will pray. I will seek. HIM.

Thank you Lord for creating me. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you God.

My plans are not my own. I give it all to You.